Monday, October 10, 2011

The Scale is a Liar and the Devil

So after the quest to find a scale I get it home and set it up. I am sitting here staring at this scale. I am so intimidated by this stupid little thing. It's really ridiculous.

Ok. I've been staring at it for five minutes at some point I have to get on this damn thing and just weigh myself once and for all. Here it goes.

The numbers come across and I fly off of that thing!! What in the hell! I do not weigh that much. There is no way. Something is wrong with this damn thing. I got a defective scale. I'm taking off my clothes. This shirt and pants have to weigh like 20lbs. They have to. I strip down to my birthday suit and jump on the scale. One pound less?!? Are you kidding me? I take the battery out of the scale and put it back in. I get on the scale again and nothing has changed.

Now I am standing here in my birthday suit, crying and staring at these numbers glaring back at me. I swear the scale is smiling at me. This is a new low. When did I get so fat?

I have decided that the scale is a liar and the devil. Thank god I am starting a diet because the skinny girl inside of me is pissed.

Well at least I finally did it. I took the first step to facing the reality of my weight. The scale isn't really a liar. I'm clearly in a very deep seated denial. That has given me more motivation to really work this diet. To change my lifestyle.

I vow to get more sleep, to stop skipping meals, to stop eating late and to start eating better. I am here not only because of my thyroid disorder and PCOS but because of me and my lifestyle.

I still think the scale is the devil but maybe it's telling the truth...maybe.

1 comment:

  1. The scale can suck a....well ya know. Don't see those numbers as the devil.....see them as motivation to kick that scales ass!! You can do it!!!!!!

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